Been thinking of kitty the whole day. Remembered of the short and sweet memories we shared. The laughter, teasing and umm...umm... yeah.. Somehow felt sad to be reminded of the things I want badly but cannot have. Things that could never come to pass. And that includes kitty. It's not about the catch really, just the chase and whatnots. However can't help but to associate the thought to one of those episode drama of "you can have the body, but not the soul" kind. Well sorta. But then again, it is not possible. Why??? Because it's complicated.
Maybe right person, wrong time? Ok, not that right either. To quote a good gay guy friend who once said, "in your eyes, he can do no wrong..." Who am I kidding huh? I guess I want it all for the wrong reasons, which is why I can't seem to have it. Well, who said life is like a bed of roses??? Screw him.
Mum said, "Don't play with fire..." Didn't realized the gravity or seriousness until being pointed out. She does have a point. Really. Mothers are always right eh? Will be more careful next time. Guard your heart at all times. Sometime I build walls around me, so that people care enough will make an effort to climb over. What a fairy-tale story huh? Again living in an illusion of what love should be. Haven't discovered its true meaning. Been blinded by movies and what people want you to believe in TVs. Prince Charming come and swoop you off your feet and whisk you away to happily-ever-afters. Hope is fading, reality is knocking at the door. Maybe there might not be one.
Maybe right person, wrong time? Ok, not that right either. To quote a good gay guy friend who once said, "in your eyes, he can do no wrong..." Who am I kidding huh? I guess I want it all for the wrong reasons, which is why I can't seem to have it. Well, who said life is like a bed of roses??? Screw him.
Mum said, "Don't play with fire..." Didn't realized the gravity or seriousness until being pointed out. She does have a point. Really. Mothers are always right eh? Will be more careful next time. Guard your heart at all times. Sometime I build walls around me, so that people care enough will make an effort to climb over. What a fairy-tale story huh? Again living in an illusion of what love should be. Haven't discovered its true meaning. Been blinded by movies and what people want you to believe in TVs. Prince Charming come and swoop you off your feet and whisk you away to happily-ever-afters. Hope is fading, reality is knocking at the door. Maybe there might not be one.
Always falling for the unavailable.
Sigh. Time to look for a new kitty to play with.
*Meow, here kitty kitty kittyyyy...*
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